Ok wait... Hey! Trouble= My exams...
I must be the craziest person on Earth to blog right when my exams are approaching... But hello, this is me. :)
So well, with my exams coming so close, and the atmosphere so cold, my hands are so cold right now. Almost numb. I don't understand whether it is because of fear or the weather or just the way people are scaring me these days.
I am so scared about my pre-boards right now that my thought process has gone awry. The thing I care about so much: My poetry... aargh.. I am unable to write these days, thanks to fear.
What with me forgetting to light a candle on 26th November, me forgetting to wish my friends and give them a smile in the morning, me forgetting to smile at my friends when I see them later in the day and giving them a frown instead, them unable to understand why my face has gone all wierd without that upward curve of my lips... I understood that my life is all messed up right now. I'm so sure I'm not going to do well these exams.. And that's what makes my hands go so cold now.
But now... That I come to think about it: What on Earth is the use of worrying ? If not now, later. If not later, after that. Life never runs out of second chances. I know many people don't exactly agree with my crazy idea... When I didn't do my second term exams well in class 9, my final exams went off comparitively well enough..!!
If not my first pre boards, second pre boards. If not the second pre boards, the boards. If not boards, life. If not life, the next life..!!
Well, this is just probably a way of consoling myself. But I guess I learnt from this.
After all, my marks aren't what I am...
There is so much to do in life, so many people to love and care about, that there is no place for fear... Love and die, or Worry and die... Life is all yours, you choose.
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